Seriously..???

Crap. This nice cool weather in the morning is making it really difficult for me to get up to run. I actually slept through my alarm today, so I figured since it wasn't so hot anymore, I'd run after I took the kids to school. Yeah. That didn't happen. John had a training session @ the gym at 1pm, so I went with him forcing myself to run on the damn mind-numbing treadmill. I did 1 mile then some weights & came back to the treadmill to do 30 minutes of intervals. I was about 5 minutes in when I felt a huge pop in my right hip and instantly a hot pain spread down my leg. I immediately stopped running and went to the foam rollers to try to work it out. It's now 6 hours later and I am in agony. It feels like a huge bruise deep into my hip bone and I am NOT a happy camper runner. I've been icing and rolling...rolling and icing in hopes that this is not yet ANOTHER something that I have to deal with. I am beyond frustrated. FML.

Lazy

I've been so lazy and unmotivated lately. I have not run more than once a week for a while now. I'm not lazy in general, but with all the pain I've been having in my leg & knee, it made me lose focus & determination to do this. I literally FORCED myself to get up out of my cozy bed @ 5:30, which frankly, was the last thing on earth I wanted to do....especially since my little guy woke me up @ 5am to ask me if he could sleep in my bed and his little body was all snuggly warm, I just wanted to wrap myself around him and smell his neck for another hour. <3
John got up to run with me...and you know how I feel about THAT. So immediately I was annoyed. I don't care if he runs ahead of me on the same route, but since he runs so much faster than me and tries to stay the same pace as I do, it drives me insane when I know he really wants to run ahead...and especially since the last time we ran together, he told me "running that slow physically hurts him". And I don't forget those little things. I hate pity runs. For those who know me, know I don't particularly LOVE running with other people because most people tend to run a lot faster than I do and I hate feeling like I'm slowing everyone down. Go on ahead, dammit! ;)
I was hurting on the run. We only did 3.6 miles and it was not my finest 35 minutes. I think I felt more out of shape and out of breath, than hurting from any source of pain, which is fine by me....I can work up to getting back into running shape without the physical pain getting in the way. I honestly can not wait until Ragnar is over so that I can RELAX and hopefully make running fun again for me and not stressful. I have come to terms that I will never be a fast runner, but I want to just enjoy the sport and feel the excitement again of getting to wake up in the quiet, crisp, early mornings and have an hour to my own thoughts. That's my goal for November. I am VERY excited for what I think Ragnar will bring my our team, but I'm also very excited to start something new :)

:(

I've been "patiently" waiting for my leg(s) to feel better before I take another run, but good God, this is getting ridiculous! Ever since my 5K on Saturday, my right hip and calf have been in agony. I think it's from compensating for the IT issue I have in my left side, but I could not let any more days pass to get in another run. I went to the gym to do a short run, but of course I had to push the envelope and do intervals so now I'm feeling like crap. My right calf is in so much pain it's like the pain I had in the very beginning of when I started to run....it's almost taken over what I feel in my left IT band. I did 1 mile in normal speed (5.6) then I did some weights and got back on the treadmill & did 15 minutes of intervals ranging from 5.0 for 1 minute then 6.8 for 1 minute, and so on for the duration. Ouch. I am frustrated. Either I don't run at all until my leg(s) get 100% better& screw myself in the process, or I continue to run & deal with the consequences....hmmmmm....at this point I have no idea which is the better deal. Neither sound that great to me, but I don't know if I have a real choice here. If I don't run at all in the meantime, I'm going to be in majorly bad shape come race time. I am really at a loss. :(

Candlelighter's 5K

Yesterday I did a 5K for the Candlelighter's (Children's Cancer). My daughter's friend found out she had a brain tumor a few months ago, at the age of 14, so we joined her team to raise money. Anyways, I have not been running, as you probably already know, because I complain about it all the damn time.....the day before the race I couldn't even run on the treadmill because my leg hurt so bad, but race day I did ok. I rubbed biofreeze (ben-gay type ointment) on my calves, which have started hurting again, and taped my knee in addition to wearing my ITB strap and I did decent. I thought I did it in 33 minutes, which I was pissed about, but I actually did it in 32:22, which...SHUT UP!! I KNOW it's slow, duh! But it's the best time I've had so far in any of the other 5K's I've done...so there! I'm hoping that sooner or later I can do less than 10 minute miles, but crap, it's hard! LOL! Everyone is saying they don't care what my time is for Ragnar, and those bitches better not be lying to me & talking crap in the van as I run 5 miles in 79 minutes ;) Seriously, how many people get out there and actually do something like Ragnar? Very few, that's who! So maybe I should just be happy I'm doing something like this & enjoy the experience, right? Right! Do you even KNOW me? If I can't do something right & win all the time, it really pisses me off & makes me not want to do it all. Ugh.....!!! So frustrating! I'm going to bed. I'm annoyed now.

4 miles, bitches!

Holy crap! It's been so long since I've been able to have a decent run so I am beyond thrilled this morning for this very small accomplishment! I know, big frikkin' whoop - 4 miles, blah blah blah....whatever, but I'll take it! Whoever said that running was like riding a bicycle (once you do it then stop, you can go right back into it) was a big fat liar. Actually, I don't even know if anyone HAS said that, but I have heard people say they "used" to run then stopped for many years before starting up again and they love it even more. Suuuuure! The first mile for me today was the worst. It's all uphill and I swear I had to stop and walk about 4 times. UGH, but the rest was pretty good. Still had pain in my (left)leg, but now it's my RIGHT knee that was bothering me, instead of my left. I can't catch a damn break! Pretty soon, my entire body is either going to be completely wrapped in KT tape or have a brace on it. This is just too damn stressful for me. Why the f*#@ can't I just RUN? Why is everything so complicated?! Ragnar is looming around the corner, taunting me, and I have a feeling this is not going to be pretty :/